There’s a precise moment when something begins.. and ends, but isn’t it funny how we never realise the beginning of it at the time?
I mean.. things that are so important should be accompanied by bells, music, drums.. something!
Instead you go about your life unsuspecting.. but for a niggly little feeling inside which you just seem to ignore.. until one day BANG! … you think “what the hell’s all this about?” what’s going on?? When did this happen??!
From one day to the next this THING takes over your life… your thoughts, your dreams, your words, your sight.. everything. Just like that. Even though the REAL start was some time in the past which went unnoticed.
So all of a sudden you have a new purpose in life, a spring in your step, a dream in your heart and something to wake up for in the morning. Something to get dressed up and look your best for. A future.
You think it’s a gift from the Heavens.. God has finally found you worthy of such a grace..
I mean it was imminent.. when you think about it, it just HAD to happen of course.
So you re-trace the steps, trying to remember details.. God, Yeah!! I remember this episode.. and that one too.. and that one!!! When did that actually happen?? That was AGES ago..
How could I not have REALISED??!! What an idiot!!
….. instead we seem to know very well when the said thing ends. Every minute detail.. date, time, what we were wearing, where we were sitting… our feelings.. the words…. Everything!
And the ending seems to be accompanied with the music of doom, with darkness… despair.
And then you get to thinking…
… If the Start went so unnoticed… then this Thing was obviously unimportant after all. We chose to make it a focal point in our lives.. it was all in the mind.
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So I’ll just try to be more attentive from now on… The bells… I need to hear the bells.. then I’ll know..
